update...

i started feeling sick about 2 weeks ago, got some stuff to take and i started to feel better, went to gym last weekend and then the monday i started feeling worse again. this time it got bad though, i was in bed for about 3 days.

last wednesday was my bday, i turned 35. halfway to 40! cant believe it, time is just flying. so i was home alone and sick in bed on my bday. i didnt feel to happy, it was the first time i woke up to an empty house on my bday, also the first time my kids werent there to wish me and give me a hug. so i was feeling kinda down on wednesday.

on thursday when i got to work i had a special delivery from the "guy" that stays far away, but we are staying in contact and hopefully be seeing him soon. he had sunflowers in a flower pot and chocolates delivered to me. it came the wednesday, but none of the guys in the office let me know that there was a delivery for me. it would really have made me feel better the wednesday knowing about the delivery. anyway, it was a really nice surprise the thursday morning.

this weekend past i had the kids, we spent some time on the beach on sunday. the weather was perfect!

i have eventually built up the guts and have booked my scuba course, its this weekend coming. i booked it just over 2 weeks ago. problem is with being sick now there is a chance i cant do it this weekend. so i am really hoping i get better by wednesday as i need to let the guy know by wednesday if i am joining the course this weekend or not. i am nervous already just thinking about the possibility that i might be doing it this weekend, freaking out!